[Inner] Demon Possession II: ICriedMyEyesOut

When I initially created [Inner] Demon Possession, I didn’t know if I would continue it. I figured it would stand alone as a one-off “art thing” I did while doing another “art thing,” and like most things in my life [Inner] Demon Possession was an accident. An accident that made sense to me and how I felt. “A Bold Makeup Look’s Body Turns Against Her. Bloody!” So me. I posted it to my Instagram and there it stayed to get lost in the feed.

I wanted to do more with it but I wasn’t sure what. I thought about making it a zine but it just didn’t make sense as one. So there it sat on my Instagram and on my computer and eventually moved to my external hard drive to be forgotten about. It still inspired me though, and means the world to me. It was the first art piece I made as an adult that I was proud of. And I’m still proud of it. But there it sat hidden away, as I got distracted with Life.

Before I knew it, my demons had crept over me and slowly started consuming me. Misery. I had never had a possession like this. I could not stop crying. I cried almost every day for a month from Early November until Mid December 2018. (I say almost, because I would have a one or two day streak before it would be broken again.) My thoughts had broken me down. I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore and then I rehydrated just to cry some more.

And eventually I began to feel better and inspired. I came up with the concept shortly after I officially ran out of tears and made the eyeballs by hand. Gagged in the process and then got possessed again.

It took a long time before I was able to do the photography for I Cried My Eyes Out. The eyeballs sat on my desk literally staring at me for over a month. So I hope you enjoy it and please, let me know what you think.

Jan/Feb 2019

March Playlist that is 3/4 March 2018 and 1/4 March 2019

It’s the last day of March so I can still get a way with posting my playlist!!! So by now you’ve realized that my playlists are not curated DJ nights and more just what I’m feeling and enjoying every month. Also this is proof that people are multidimensional. It’s so boring to limit yourself to one genre/style/aesthetic and I absolutely refuse to do it! I love so many different styles and I plan on pulling them all off! March makes me think of sunshine and springtime being on the way so all of these songs remind me of early spring in Canada where the snow has melted into grey slush and the cool air is warmed by the sun and it smells.. damp.. but in a good way… like the oh yay its damp not freezing way.. you know what I mean. I woke up to frost today though so maybe we’ll have to wait a little bit longer. Anyway, enjoy my March playlist! It’s a lot of fun. 🙂

Psychedelic Bedroom Tour 2019

My ~first youtube video~

Honestly I have been learning and growing so much in the past few months and I want to continue my learning and growth by practicing my editing skills! (Getting more comfortable talking in front of the camera is a good bonus.) I find making videos to be a lot of fun and think it would be a good way for me to entertain my friends who live far away. It reminds me of the radio show I used to have and youtube seems like the natural next step.

I wanted my first vid to be an introduction to me and what better way to do that than to walk around where I spend the majority of my time and tell you all about my material possessions! I’m a little bit awkward, but who isn’t in their first youtube video?

Anyway, I hope you “Like Comment & Subscribe it” even if you don’t.. I probably won’t stop.

‘Like Comment Subscribe’ is the ‘Eat Pray Love’ of the youtube community isn’t it?

Whatever, enjoy!!

Seventies Wallpaper

Photoshoot Date: November 2018
Photographer: Em Liatsis
Stylist: Em Liatsis
MUA: Em Liatsis

Outfit Details: Led Zeppelin from Saffrons in Royal Oak, Michigan, pants from @bangbangvtg on instagram, glasses from Zenni Optical.

[Inner] Demon Posession

Inner Demon Possession is a series that explores my relationship to my mental health. I refer to my mental illness as being Possessed by my Inner Demons. I have been dealing with Depression and Anxiety, for over half my life and have acquired some new demons in recent years.

Sometimes when I am possessed I can feel myself wanting to “snap out of it,” my soul scratching at me from deep inside, begging me to see the light but I can’t, I am no longer me. It is a demon that I sometimes cannot control.

This series exists so I can express what I cannot put into words. I can tell you my inner demons have possessed me and what happened, and I give you reasons why I cried my eyes out. But I cannot tell you how I feel, I can only show you. 

March 2018

Sixties Laundry Day

Photoshoot Date: January 21st, 2019
Photographer: Ryan Priddle @ryan.priddle
Stylist: Emily Liatsis
MUA: Emily Liatsis

Outfit Details: Shirt and skirt are thrifted
GoGo boots are from shoefreaks.ca

This girl is a waitress in 1960’s California. She wants to be a star in Hollywood but she hasn’t gotten her big break yet. She dreams about her future on the silver screen while doing her laundry.

Witchy Woman

Photoshoot Date: August 2018
Photographer: Tom Schoenholz @hammoids
Stylist: Emily Liatsis @chthoniccutie
MUA: Emily Liatsis

Outfit Details: Dress is from Out Of The Past Clothing, Hamilton, Ontario